I had this “new” thought last week, and have been dwelling on it ever since. I’m very tempted to look into an older, done, maybe stepping down horse when I start my horse2.0 search. The perks are pretty self explanatory. It would require less schooling, less “unknowns” than a green horse might, it would know it’s job and be ready to go do something the minute I wanted to. That last part is really a selling point for me, because I know that with my newly expanded family and going back to work, my brain power and time may be scarce. Having something that will take care of me a little – that is really drawing me in. Plus the idea of actually focusing on my own goals for the time being is also very intriguing.
I know that with an older horse, who has maybe/probably jumped a lot of jumps in his or her life may require difference support, and it maybe a long term liability. I know that. It’s a matter of what scares me more? Right now I’m scared to buy the greenie who needs my unwavering devotion for the first 6 months of ownership. I’m worried that having my trainer put on all the important buttons might just make me more anxious. And honestly I’m scared that I will be back to jumping 18″ crossrails for another year. The green ones give you a wonderful feeling of accomplishment, but on days like this I’m panicking about the fact that I might not have it in me to try all this at once.
So what is wrong with buying an older one? Why haven’t I considered this before? It’s because I have some weird sense that buying something nice or already trained is cheating the system. Not sure what system, maybe the ammy adult system? But whatever it is, I need to get over it. Any horse requires work, and any path I take will be difficult, but the idea of starting from nothing right now is overwhelming. I can’t think of one person in my barn who would judge me for skipping the green bean stage again. But mentally, I am very stuck there. I wish I could describe it. I guess I need to remind myself that I don’t need to do the DIY hunter program again if I don’t want to.
As a friend once told me, we deserve to enjoy riding. Maybe down the road that means a lovable horse who will take me around for a few years before needing to step down, or maybe it will mean buying another greenie. I don’t know. But I know that having these thoughts and ideas now is what will help me narrow my search down the line. This is going to be so hard.