The Obvious Fears

Adding another human to the family was not a lightly taken decision. My husband and I both travel for it work, we are both passionate and competitive in our respective hobbies, and double the responsibility. But when it’s the right thing, you make it work. This is what felt right to us. And we are so, so excited for this little boy’s addition!

If you’re wondering, yes, this baby is the reason behind my three year plan scramble.  It started out as a way to provide tangible plans to my spouse, so he could breathe easier knowing what the heck I was trying to do.  I find myself now treating it as a road map of ideas.  It’s kind of fun!

All gushing aside, I am very nervous about the riding aspect.  I know that it will be hard.  Getting my daughter to the point she is now at the barn (reasonably controlled) was a long education with lots of roadbumps, and now I essentially get to start over again.

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From my daughter’s announcement

I also know that I cannot do what I did during recovery with O around, which was essentially pressure myself to do as much riding as possible (she was for sale). That led to a lot of sore rides, and frustration on my part at my own limitations. I am confident that I have an entire barn full of people who are there to support me; plus my family being nearby never hurts. And I thank god, very freaking day, for having quiet, safe schoolhorses I can ride now and get back on after baby gets here.

There’s a large part of me that is so excited to “start over again”. To share those moments at the barn with my son. I can only hope that he’s as responsive to the horses as my little girl is. And if he’s not, I will figure something else out. Because if there’s a will, there’s a way.  And dammit, I have a 3 year plan to enact!

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10 thoughts on “The Obvious Fears

  1. Congrats again, boys are fun. Its always intimidating and awesome to reset the clock. I’m going for #3 :O Still a little scared by that one, we will be outnumbered. My daughter LOVES horses, but is harder at the barn. She wants to socialize, walk right up to the horses etc. My son came first and has a healthier respect for horses and the dangers involved. I bring sand toys and both my kids think the arena is a big sandbox and will play happily for full lessons. I am sure even if your boy isn’t horse crazy (mine really does enjoy them) than he will at least love the dirt, sand, etc to play in.

  2. Congratulations on your big news! Like all things, you just figure it out as you go! Baby boys are awesome (obviously partial to them since I have two). Graham is an April baby boy too! Exciting!

  3. Congrats again! I have 2 boys, ages 9 and 4, and felt the same way about adding the second one. Justin was 5 and able to act like a human being at the barn finally…aaaaand then we started all over. Get ready for lots of Legos, mud, and various weaponry. We have no less than 4 drawers in the playroom labeled “Weapons” full of Nerf guns, swords, and the like. Never a dull moment!

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