I love my job.
I love the amazing opportunities I have to travel, work with great people, and create my own little identity within the cubicle world. My company constantly places among the top 20 places to work in the US, and I’m definitely spoiled. They give us gifts, awesome work life extras (gym, on-site day care, pharmacy, even car detailing), but lately I had felt myself really, really getting drawn in. What I was doing was way overboard, added to the fact that May-July are huge travel months for me didn’t bode well. I found myself in a situation where I was spending what time I had at home, stressing and thinking (or emailing) about work.
But then…vacation happened. Seven days of not being in the office. Seven days of not feeling the need to be on my phone all the time, I didn’t open my laptop once, and I let the work I delegated actually stay delegated. By the last few nights, I stopped grinding my teeth at night, slept great, and really took time to enjoy my people.
I know that busy seasons will always be busy, but this was a major wake up call for me. As a people pleaser, I tend go far beyond what is necessary…at the expense of my work – life balance. I need to be reminded that it isn’t worth it. My career isn’t going anywhere, but I’m missing out on other things. I had had to cancel several riding lessons, dinners with friends, and other things that I love. It’s not my job’s fault, they support my personal life plenty, it is mine for not managing my priorities better.
So I’m updating my work life balance. Back in lessons this week, back to being present for my family and friends, and back to myself. I feel really good about this wake-up call and even better about my decision to stop being so neurotic about work. And hey, maybe I’ll actually hit publish on the 5 drafted posts I never managed to complete.
It’s back to my normally scheduled horse topics next, but who else besides me gets badly wrapped up in their careers some times?