One Year Horseless 

Facebook reminded me today that a year ago, I watched my little bay mare walk on to someone else trailer and head off to her new family.  What I remember now is that as she pulled away is I thought that I had failed her completely and that my dreams were over.

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Getting ready to leave.

Things are easier when you know they are the right decision.  Easier.  Not easy.  I still miss her, and I’m lucky enough to have been able to reach out to her family a few times in the past 12 months and can report that she’s doing really great.

In the past year, I have ridden schoolies who gave me my strength back, Dee who gave me my guts back, and have found myself even more grateful for the support system I have now.  It honestly has seemed like a very, very long time since I’ve owned.  And while I appreciate and know the set up I have going now is working…I still miss that connection.  I constantly find myself looking at sale ads, or drooling over friends’ new shiny 4-legged babies.


Cute DeeDee

I know that in the past year (and maybe more), I have accepted that I really would like my next purchase to be an all around citizen.  I loved that O was a neat little jumper.  But you couldn’t trail ride her without risking life/limb.  I loved that she would wear a western saddle and look adorable.  But I want to try it all; life is too short to not try.  I hope to find something that I can trail ride on, maybe foxhunt on, take to a hunter or jumper class, let my kid climb on, etc.  I don’t need a hack winner at this point in my life, and I’m cool with that.  Who knows what I’ll end up with, but I feel like I’m much more open to a variety of horses down the road.

So I’m celebrating my one year of horselessness with a lesson, and drinks with friends.  It has been a great year, regardless of how I felt that day O left.  And yes, dreams come back, even if they are a bit different than you pictured.  That’s not a bad thing at all.  God, I’m such a sap.  Cheers ya’ll.

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16 thoughts on “One Year Horseless 

  1. It is a hard thing, even when it’s best! My very first horse passed away at 26 years of age when I was pregnant with my first child. She is now a bit over 2! I miss it so much, but know with two kids under 3 now, that a horse isn’t in our best interests currently!

  2. It’s a tough time for sure. But goof that you have Dee Dee to help you through it and a great support system. Being patient will pay off and I think you’ve got the perfect attitude and are smart to try it all!

  3. Being horseless is tough, but I also remember that I needed a break from the ups and downs. I’m glad I took the time before I bought Miles… but I’m also really glad to have one of my own. That connection is something I always missed ❤

  4. There sure are pros and cons to owning vs lessons/leasing. I’m glad the decision feels a little easier now, and know you’ll find the perfect partner when you’re ready for it!

  5. Sending hugs girl. That whole thing about dreams not turning out quite the way we expect resonates. I’m still sorry the way things turned out with O, but am so happy you found Dee! (and an oddly satisfied by the alphabet soup of your horses haha). Hopefully when the time is right you find a new equestrian partner that ticks off all the right boxes!!

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